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[18 Jan 2010|01:12pm] |
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
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[09 Dec 2009|09:28am] |
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My great Aunt Claire died last night. A year to the day my grandmother (her sister) died. I can't help but think that they're all together now, somewhere. Mimi, Grandma, and Claire. Free of the ravages of time and cancer they will live forever in our hearts and minds.
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[18 Nov 2009|08:57pm] |
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Past is past. Nothing can be gained by talking of it with anyone. There is only pain. I don't need that in my life nor do I need a person that continually causes it. It's gone. All gone. Never met her, never knew her. If any of you catch me talking about her please slap me. No use beating a dead horse. In my heart I know the truth, even if no one else ever will. I need to accept that I will be the only one that knows and opinions will be formed based on conjecture. I release all this pain into the universe and allow it to settle where it belongs. But it does not belong with me. The future is clear for me and I will travel down that path unhindered.
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[18 Nov 2009|02:48pm] |
WOW..so as you always told me about yourself.." I'm a mean, evil hardened old woman, a monster that will never have love in my life, It's not for me". You just completed your OWN self fulfilling prophecy. Guess we are basically how we perceive ourselves to be!
I will move on from you Michelle! I will be better from these past months and how you taught me that yes, it does take two to crumble a relationship. But what I do know for my future is that I will NOT become callous and closed off like you. AND unwilling to see events and causes as they truly were. As if you had no part in this all "other than breaking my heart"..like that was nothing to you? My friends and family want me to tell you " LEAVE HER ALONE! GOT IT"? sound familiar? I will never forget what you have lied about and how you pushed me away ..then claimed I was clingy"...amazing ! Someday you need to look within and perhaps you might find why " everyone that claims to love you, always does this to you" Patterns repeat themselves because you don't change who you are and how you relate to those you say you love...Frightened to meet someone you hate if you can show no compassion for someone you hurt! Go ahead just kill yourself...NOT OVER YOU. Hope you did not encourage your mother also. And don't tell me you have never felt this..you yourself told me you had...You will just NEVER look at your own actions and own anything! Just spend your live complaining to everyone and being angry that "everyone wants something from poor you". You have nothing to give anyone. Until you learn to let people in Michelle. Kind of sad isn't it?
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[17 Nov 2009|07:16am] |
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Next time have the fucking guts to tell someone that you're no longer interested and sleeping with someone else instead of putting them through all that BULLSHIT. Grow a fucking pair.
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[15 Nov 2009|06:35pm] |
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So... Yesterday... I don't remember any of it. I suppose flashes. Apparently I had a very bad emotional breakdown. Bad enough that I don't remember any of it and totally thought today was Saturday. So if I said anything odd to anyone yesterday I apologize.
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[12 Nov 2009|07:53pm] |
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Dear world,
SPAY YOUR GODAMN ANIMALS! I'm sick of delivering pus puppies. That's right. They had a six year old fucking mean nasty biting chihuahua with it's uterus full of pus because they never got it fixed as a puppy. Then they bitch when it's a 1,300 dollar procedure to save it's life before it's uterus busts open and pus flows freely in it's belly. Well if you would of gotten her spayed six years ago then it would of cost you 100 dollars. Way to go dumbass. Did I mention this thing freaks and will bite towels, metal bars, doctors, anything that gets near it?
I hate chihuahuas.
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[11 Nov 2009|01:58pm] |
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So that dog that got hit by a car came in the other day. We took the stitches out of her face. She's doing great. The eye area is still swollen and you can't see the eye but the swelling should go down and we'll see if her eye is intact. I think it is.
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[04 Nov 2009|07:46pm] |
So! Intermission songs were out of order. The people I had to do the skits with me backed out so... We improved it all! It was amusing. www.youtube.com/watch
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[03 Nov 2009|08:05pm] |
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Btw the way Masamune broke. I.. don't know what to do. There's no way to ask her to make another. maybe... I'll find a comissioner sometime.
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[03 Nov 2009|07:38pm] |
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I really am self destructive. Not to the point that I'm a danger to myself but to the point it makes amusing scars. Ragin fir or water hmm? Be pissed all you want. You have NO say anymore. As a con report I kicked ass. Intermission was a bust and the judges took too long. We never got to swim. Or drink. We were going to go in FF7 and get drinks at the bar. Maybe Fanime when I'm less busy. Though I was asked to be staff for Fanime now. Which is cool. Anyways, only thing I did was a few fake kisses. Which was fine. It was just with the Demyx I know and the Saix I know. Both girls I've known a few years. Though random Demyx kissed me. x.x And proclaimed I helped her understand her bisexual and homosexual friends. XD I'm so weird.
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[27 Oct 2009|12:46pm] |
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So Kiddo made it through the night and we did surgery to close her wounds this morning. She'll be just fine given time and rest and meds.
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[26 Oct 2009|08:43pm] |
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So today I got covered head to toe in blood. Seriously. From my hair to my shoes. Soaked through to my bra and skin. I looked like a murder victim. BUT! We saved the dog that got hit by a car. So it was worth it. I'll try to keep you guys posted on her progress. She got whacked in the head pretty badly but nothing was broken. Was were hoping she'll be ok. We was wagging her tail at me when we sent her to the overnight clinic.
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[19 Oct 2009|08:28pm] |
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I won't be on much the next few days. Gin, call my if want I get calls to canada fine. 419-575-1510
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